so, it hasn’t been a good last 2 weeks.
i had to have an emergency medical procedure - don’t worry, i’m ok and now back to my normal functionality.
but it had to put my exercise on the furthest back burner ever.
the only good part was that my stress levels made me have like no appetite, so i haven’t gained much of anything…
now i really am just pissed off.
everytime i start to get somewhere with my weight loss, SOMETHING always comes up. i’m so sick of it, and i’m sick of my health coming second to most other parts of my life (even though this time it was my health that got in the way of weight loss…)
i’ve been getting so mad at myself because i remember last year, the year before, and years before that i kept thinking i would be at a healthy weight by now.
but i’m not. i haven’t taken it seriously enough, nor have i made it a permanent part of my lifestyle. and that’s the problem, i need to make time in my life for this, and it needs to take main priority over other hobbies.
i want to bike everywhere nearby, like the walmart, publix, or target, or even the gym. i want to bike to work, but its a little too far (by car its 15 minutes over a 6 mile long bridge).
but i can’t bike until i fix my bikes - which basically need all but the frame and seats replaced on them, soooo more money.
i just always feel beaten down by my need for money to get anything fucking done.